1.31.2010

Idle Hearted Music

This girl
This woman is idle hearted
This girl
This woman is from her anguish
Now departed

She writes her words to sing
Not to be spoken
She sings to repair a voice that's broken.

You call her names
And it burns some flames
Behind her eyes
You call her names
And she can't hear them
Are you surprised?

They call her crazy
This crazy lady
She doesn't bother
To even answer
Because she's lazy

She's made lethargic
By faulty logic
At which you seem so adept
She's going college
As you made her promise
So what did you expect?

I know you're reading
But my voice is singing
To silence the names you call me
I know you're reading
And I'm still singing
To balance the names you call me

I am defeated
But not yet dead

No matter what damage my life seem to accrue
I tear it down and build something anew
But when you walk in the room
I pause
For my dreams seem to be confounded by you.